05/28/2023

June is approaching and I find myself thinking of you. I hope you’ve found peace. I am restless in my unknowing. I once thought we were the same, knee matching knee, hip matching hip. shoulder to shoulder, heads ducked together in constant connection. It’s strange to exist without you, even stranger to know you’re living without me.

I can trace the string between us, feel it tug in my chest with the ache to follow it.

Do you remember how we used to run? In tracksuits and jelly shoes. The grass was damp and your favorite shade of green. We joined the choir at our preschool. You played Mary and I the sheep. We were girls together. We wore dresses for fun, stole your mom’s makeup and laughed as we put it on. Now the lipstick is my own and I apply it in the mirror alone and I miss you so very much. There’s a child in my heart and she’s still holding your hand.